Sunshine!

1,000 hits! Holy cow. When I started this blog I had no idea what I was really getting into. I can't believe that so many of you actually read this. I have continually been praying that God is able to use this to speak his love into your life. He has blessed me so much through this. It is incredible to actually see myself change and grow through this experience. I can honestly say that I know who I want to be and feel confident about the direction I am heading in life. I hope all you lovely bloggees out there get an opportunity like this sometime in your life. 
So... I am taking the time to write during my spring break because tonight my dad told me I was "slack-a-lackin". My response was, "I'm on spring break, nothing exciting has happened." He told me I should write anyways. This is for you dad. 
If you couldn't tell from my last blog, I had reached the point of exhaustion. Motivation and optimism were no longer in my vocabulary. Thankfully this week has put the spring back into my step. Maybe that's why it is called "spring" break! I apologize for the corny joke. I couldn't resist. The highlight to my week has been the glorious sunshine. I'm not lying when I say that I have legitimately prayed for the sun everyday the past month. Thanks God! Today I got to do pilates and I even got sunburned! I have never been so happy to have a sunburn. My massage therapist got sick and the only other available massage therapist was Rico... no thanks! So I went and got some fresh strawberries with the BF instead. I would say it was an equal trade off. After that I played house and went grocery shopping, made cookies, and had dinner on the table by the time everyone was done with work. I would gladly do that everyday if I could somehow make money doing it. Alas, I am stuck at some super awesome university in San Diego learning about something I'm super interested in so that I can get an ideal job... sigh. I guess it is just my lot in life. I will turn the drama off now. 
I hope this blog thrilled your socks right off. I vow to have something way more interesting when I go back to school. For now I will fulfill my promise of "treasuring my foundations" and soak in every minute of this break. 

A joyful heart is like a sunshine of God’s love, the hope of eternal happiness, a burning flame of God…..And if we pray, we will become that sunshine of God’s love-in our own home, the place where we live, and in the world at large.

Mother Teresa

If by the grace of God...

Well, I had another very important first this week. I reserved my very first apartment! I'm still in shock. It is ideal. A cute one bedroom with a kitchen!! A kitchen to fill with teapots and pot holders. My roomie is coco a.k.a. my God send of a pledgee friend. Thanks God. It is right across the street from the ADX house so if we become active(by the grace of God) we will be able to take part in all the fun. If you can't tell, I am pretty excited about it. After we signed the papers I said, "coco what am I doing getting an apartment? I'm still a baby!" If someone told me six months ago that this is where I would be now I would have been scared to death. God has given me so much courage in the past couple of months. I know this is precisely where He wanted me to be. It is a glorious feeling being under His plan and not my own. As far as what I was freaking out about on my last blog... well I'm still kind of freaking out. Everyday I feel more and more secure and safe. I'm starting to believe that He knows best, rather than just knowing it in my head. Sometimes it still sucks though. I'm pretty sure my plan would be a lot more fun every now and then. 
In others news... I learned how to play the spoons in one of my classes. State is kicking some basketball booty. I am developing major Aztec pride. Pledging is hard but really good. This is that point in the semester when you feel like you have been in school(and pledging) forever and the end isn't quite close enough to be motivating. Spring break couldn't be here fast enough. Some rejuvenation is definitely needed. I hope you all find time to rest in God in the midst of all your chaos. Love love love!


Psalm 127:2
 It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives sleep to his beloved.

That "Really God??" Moment

Has He ever asked you to give up something you really don't want to? Don't you hate those moments when you have the opportunity to walk out everything you say you believe in and you find it is harder than you thought? This year God has taken a lot of things out of my life. Relationships have changed, plans have changed, and even dreams have changed. Some of it was easier to let go than others. For the most part though, it was easy for me to trust that He knows better. I trusted that He knew best when I got into State. I learned to trust that He knew best when my car was totaled. I even leaned on Him when life shattering tragedy struck from out of nowhere. Having such confidence in Him is comforting. However, I began to feel prideful as if it was something I had under control. Lean on Him? Check! I so have that one down. Well, you know what they say... Pride comes before a fall. One thing I have been learning while going through the whole pledging process is that I'm not good at not being perfect. I am even good at making my faults sound like a positive thing. Meeting with so many girls and hearing their amazing, crazy stories I realized that being perfect is neither exciting nor endearing. So, I asked to be humbled. Ask and it shall be given to you. At first, the whole humbling process was totally doable for me. It was basically like being blessed so much that you begin to feel like you don't deserve it. So many blessings have been poured out on me in the past month. But now comes the true test... He is asking me to give up something that in reality is already His. I know in my head that I'm not in control. I know that He works for the good of those who love Him. And yet, everything inside me wars against relinquishing my plan. That's where I'm stuck for now, and I'm not sure what else to say. I'm not into the whole sharing every emotion and detail of your life on the internet; therefore, this is all terribly vague. However, I don't want anyone to think I'm doing anything bad or that I'm going to do something insane. So, if you are like me and curiosity runs through your veins just ask and I would be glad to share with you what is going on. If not, then I hope that whoever reads this can relate and finds comfort in knowing that we are all equally as clueless. My ultimate wish is that this blog points all you faithful bloggees directly to Him. 

Guess Who's Back

My faithful bloggees! I am so so so sorry for being so neglectful. I fail as a blogger. My mom just told me that people have been asking why I stopped. If that was you, I love you. You have inspired me!
The past couple of weeks have been absolutely insane and wonderful. My pledge sisters and I are completely inseparable now. God has really blessed our friendship. We all work so well together and the love and support blows my mind every time I am with them. I got a big sis!! I'm so in love. Yet again God had his hand in that one as well. She is such an amazing Godly woman. I survived my midterms. My birthday was last week too. I'm finally 18!! How many times have I dreamt about this day? I have spent countless hours wondering what it would be like to be in college with friends and freedom. It is so much better than I ever imagined. These days I am completely in awe of how blessed I am. Surprisingly, it is so humbling. I guess it is true that when you reach the limit of yourself that is when He steps in and lets everything fall into place. I have never been so tired or busy, but I have also never been so excited. 
I promised you a driving blog and a driving blog you will get. Okay, when I decided that I was going to stay home and be a commuter I was totally dreading the drive. I drove like a granny. I never drove over 70, and cutting through traffic never even crossed my mind. That lasted for about a week. I must say that for the most part, people on the 15 really know how to drive. However, there is also that one that has to go and screw everything. I have a great thing going with Mr. Ford Ranger; we are going fast enough and there is no tailgating or crazy stuff going on. Then Mr. Honda Accord has to squeeze himself in between and ruin the great thing we had. He's tailgating Mr. Ranger and breaking in front of me. That is a drive ruiner right there. I know you all know exactly what I'm talking about too. The 78 is totally a different story. Everyone suddenly forgets how to drive as soon as they get onto the 78. It is ridiculous. However, I must sincerely apologize because I'm pretty sure I used to be that slow driver that messed everything up. I have abandoned my granny ways and have now graduated to a true commuter. 
Once again, I love all you bloggees out there. I solemnly vow to be a better blogger.